The Pine Club

Not one month ago I was a member of that club. That vast group of broken hearted individuals pining over the loss of a boy- or girlfriend. Dying for some fairy tale creature to end their lonely nights and vow them eternal love. Wanting, yet daring not to tell The One, how they feel about him or her.

Mark you, I envy those, for such sadness over love is innocent and very sweet. I too am sad because of love, but in my eyes in my heart and in my soul it is a bigger love that sends the tears running over my cheeks.

Love for a man, as close to me as a brother, love for unborn children, and no mather how little reason to live their death leaves me with, I can only embrace life, cling to it as if it was the last memory I have left of them.

Goodbye

Friday 17 march, 7:03 am, I got a phonecall from the München police. Jonathan Vandekerckhove and Esther Kimura have been involved in a carcrash. They have been transported to the University Hospital of Mûnchen where they are both fighting for their life. With less than a 0,1% chance to live.

Little happiness and energy as I am left with, I say goodbye to blogging for a while. I will not delete the blog because I know I will write again as J would have wished.

Deception #5832

Anti-tangle hairspray does not untangle the knots and tangles in my hair for me. And it does not smell like strawberries contrary to what the bottle promises. And that's just fine by me. Because it smells even better than strawberries. Detangled hair would take all the fun out of combing my hair and it still makes my hair as soft as silk.

Anti tangle hairspray it's like loosing a pair of socks and finding a gucci dress instead. ( Very likely, one you won't fit in but it's still a gucci dress)

J's children

Frederika, Katarina and Sebastian.

Those are the names of my future godchildren. And the thrilling news was brought to me by father-to-be J.

Questions: Isn't it rather soon to decide on names in the fifth month of the pregnancy? Aren't Amalia and Aurelia nicer names for one-egg girl twins? Can I give my godson two middlenames?

And whilst you're reading this J: Call me more often and give me some answers.

Knots

For the first time ever in my live, I have bought anti-tangle spray. Though my hair is difficult to comb I suppose I could have done without, that is, untill last tuesday. But then again who could resist a perfect handsized flashing pink bottle with easy spray cap, a girly bathroom scented content and the promise to untangle my hair for me.
The child within is having it's way, even if the adult without could have done without anti-tangle spray.

No Connection

A few months ago my internet connection ceased to exist. One computertechnology schooled housemate of mine could almost immediately tell me what the problem was. So I called our lanlord to tell him the problem ( so that he could get it fixed), he told me to contact the firm that did the internet connection installation. They tell me to contact the helpdesk, Helpdesk confirmed the housmate's analysis of the problem and tells me to call the disturbance service. Disturbance says that our house has an internet connection and that the problem must be local, meaning; a router-computer connection failure. Which is as much as I knew a month ago. All this time relying on contact with the outside world via internet connected computers available at campus. But who can I call to fix the router-computer connection?