Make A Wish

Looks like someting I wish I had cartloads of, just so I could make everyone I love a little happier.

Options

Before I tell you what. I would just like to say that I know I shouldn't throw my entire personal life for grabs on-line, hence the possible vagueness of this post. Also this post is about only one person even though two known readers might feel it's about them.

I have options, plenty of options. (1) I could pretend nothing happened. Comfort X. Say 'It'll be alright' and move on. I known in time X'll see me as a friend again but what would be friendship to X would be a lie to me. (2) I could do what X do(es), blame everybody else and become a vegetable again, but I've only just escaped from simple shrugging and not-caring. (3)Disappear. If X cannot see me, I cannot hurt X. But that just too easy, isn't it?

Hmm, three probably isn't 'plenty' but still, I have no idea what I should/ can do. Advice would be helpful but I suppose I'll have to figure it out as I have been doing since normality crept in.

A Poem #2

Oh yes
there are worse things than
being alone
but it often takes decades
to realize this
and most often
when you do
it's too late
and there's nothing worse
than
too late.

Charles Bukowski

A Poem #1

Tell me, if I caught you one day
and kissed the sole of your foot,
wouldn't you limp a little then,
afraid to crush my kiss?...

Nichita Stãnescu

Too beautiful not too post. Stumbled upon it around here.

The Flash of the neon lights

It's hard to believe though, since I majorly screwed up as a friend, today.

Tee hee hee (bis)

It's probably still not what you think. As very usual in my life, nothing whatsoever happened. Only a short, very short message, that made me smile. And after the smile, came butterflies. Until, a split second later, I started to think about it and then there was doubt. And now I'm confused again. Why can't I just say: 'I like you, and you should like me too. Let's hook up.'?

Birthday Party Announcement

One month to go, so tou had all better start shopping for presents. Also you might want to go on a diet because If you're attending I'll probably stuff you like turkeys on Thanksgiving. Except that I don't celebrate Thanksgiving and you don't look like a bunch of turkeys. :-S

I'm just saying, don't plan anything on september 20, you're all invited for drinks and munchies and chatter. Hope to see you guys there. RSVP's would be nice.

Great Unexpactations

It may or may not be obvious to those among you who count themselves as my closest friends, but all is not well. I had hoped that with the first consecutive 5 minutes of internetconnection in four days I would be typing the sequel of Tee Hee Hee. Not that I would only feel disappointment.

M is for...

What Morgan Means

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

There are enough adjectives in the above to describe the entirity of mankind, and yet I have no friends who would deny the very last sentence to be applicable.

10 things people should be more aware of when talking to me

I don't suppose even one person who reads this doesn't already know this, but I'm a wee tad bored and in dire need of a blogpost so...

1. I have very attractive feet: look at them instead of my boobs.
2. I'm not easily flattered
3. I'm specifically unflattered by obviously untrue compliments
4. I can be very serious about subjects that only exist in my or even other people's imagination
5. I seldomly get bored of telling anyone within earshot how much I would like to die
6. I like to invite people for dinner
7. I'm quite easily offended, if you wish to enter a conversation with me, it is best to speak as little as possible
8. If you are saying nice things about me, it's extra nice if you cuddle, but don't touch my hair or my nipples
9. I don't smile much, I also hardly ever laugh so don't take offence if your jokes are met with icecold looks
10. Don't cheer me up! I hate being cheered up.